Reality will break your heart
Survival will not be the hardest part
It’s keeping all your hopes alive
When all the rest of you has died– 26, Paramore
- Ten years ago, I was in my carpool on the way to school, not quite awake, when CrushCrushCrush came on the radio and changed my life forever. From that moment on, music became one of the few things that offered me an escape, from feeling trapped inside the weighty loneliness+sadness combo that’s always been with me for as long as I can remember.
- I learned to play guitar and I tried to learn how to sing because I wanted to be like Hayley and turn sadness into something beautiful.
- I dyed my hair with red streaks in the summers and finally dyed it fully red in the first week of freshman year at college. It stayed that way the whole time I was in that university.
- I didn’t hear from them for so long. When Paramore came out it sounded so bizarre and somehow mostly meaningless to me that I thought it was all over.
- After years and years, my girlfriend puts their new album on Spotify while we’re making breakfast. “26” comes on, and suddenly I’m the kid again, knocked out of a lonely daydream by a voice saying she gets it, she still gets it.